Dec 27, 2010

Since our last episode....

Yeah, not much has happened.  Still pregnant!  Getting bigger every day!

Well, not really.  I've actually LOST a pound since my last appt.  I'm eating, I swear.  There's just less room for food these days.  Likewise, I can't sleep on my back.  It makes it so I can't breathe.  Oxygen is kind of important, you know?  Plus the burning ligament of doom.  Right in my crotch.  Yeah, this guy can be born.  I am DONE.

I think I've got the diapering down.  I've been making a lot, and I got my 2 doz prefolds on Christmas Eve. I washed them and they're nice.  Not exactly what I was expecting but.... well, I have no idea what I was expecting.  But I like them.  They're nice and thick.  I'm waiting on some infant ones from a Raveler, and I'll make some soakers from the terry I have.  I got my snap press today and made a GREAT diaper.  It's a pocket with grey velour on the inside, a one-size.  I think it's a little small, but whatever.  It'll work.

I had more to say.  I'll give a Christmas rundown later.  This was really the best Christmas we've had in a long time.  My husband is amazing and my kids are awesome.  Even when they're super loud.

Dec 18, 2010

28 Weeks

I've officially hit the third trimester!

And I'm not as big as I thought I was.  The midwife I saw today was pretty impressed with how I managed to not gain any weight over the holiday.  Well- a pound.  But it's not crazy like I guess it is for a lot of people.  I still have 12 weeks to go, which means Capt Jack is going to gain +/- 6lbs.  That means I gain about the same.  I think I'm ok with that.  It'll probably be a leeeetle more, but that's how pregnancy goes.  

We're slowly getting everything together for him.  I have a couple carriers, we have a mini Pack N Play for next to the bed, my mom and Amber have given us clothes and I'm working on the diapers.  I just ordered 2 doz prefolds today, and I'm getting 15 more from a destash.  Really, all we need is the carseat and a Boppy and we'll have the minimum we need to bring him home.  Even the Boppy isn't absolutely necessary.  I could make one and it'd be fine.  I'm kind of waiting for my shower.  I know that sounds terrible, but I don't want to double up on anything.  I hate having to return stuff.  

Speaking of making things, I'm still waiting for my fabric from Joann's.  I need to make the girls' their pj pants.  We're wicked behind in Christmas shopping.  We've kind of put it off.  Now it's a week away.  Ooops.  I think we'll do ok, though.  Christmases aren't huge deals with us.  We much prefer to to spend them together enjoying each other than with a bunch of gifts.  :)  

Dec 5, 2010

Yay, I've hit 100!

100 posts on this blog that is.  And nope- no giveaways, presents or anything cool.  Instead we talk about diapers.

I think I have everything I need to make Capt Jack's diaper stash.  The last of the flannel is on its way, and I got my huge box from  I'm getting a bunch of prefolds from someone on Rav, which will work for a variety of things.  I just need to get cutting and sewing.  Oh, and I need to order snap pliers.  That may wait till next paycheck, though.  We'll see.  I probably need to knit some more soakers, too, but I'm waiting for the pattern I test knit to be finished so I can do larger sizes.  I don't want to do too many small ones, since I know Anne is making me some (Dr Who themes, FTMFW!).

I really want to start getting baby stuff, but I don't know what people are getting for my shower.  Plus my parents will want to get him something, and they usually get the big stuff.  I don't want to ask, but I may have to.  All we really need is the carseat, Pack N Play and a place for him to sleep upstairs, and maybe a few more shirts and sleepers.  The rest is just extra.  Nice to have, but extra.

Dec 4, 2010

Ennui, I has it

Well, sort of.

Today was an odd day.  Justin got up with the girls, but his new meds made him sleepy.  So he passed out on the couch after putting a call into his doc to make sure he wasn't dying (he's not- it's a normal side effect).  I came downstairs to find him snoring on the couch, and joined him.  Took Maddie lunch, then went over to the GS hale to get her vest and stuff.  Justin came with.  Went to the mall, ran into my friend Sunny, got some moisturizer.  Justin was out of it most of the day.

We got home and fully planned on grocery shopping.  I had a headache that turned into a migraine rather quickly.  So I passed out on the couch with a heat pack on my eyes, where I apparently snored VERY loudly and had weird Star Trek dreams (I had ST:TNG on the TV.  I think it bled through).  Woke up to Justin bringing me pizza.  I love that man.

That's been what this week has been like.  Weird.  Busy in spurts.  We spent all Monday morning at Tripler, since Justin had an appt with a new psych to get his meds straightened out then his vasectomy was at 10:30.  WOOHOO!  That's right, ladies, his factory is SHUT DOWN.  After Capt Jack Blueberry Hulk is born, there will be no more babies from us.  While we were there, we got a call from Travis that Darcee was in labor.  Luckily Amber was able to watch Annika- I just had to pick her up and take her to school.  :)  Justin didn't even want our children around, much less anyone else's.  He's still really sore.

So I've spent the last few days babying him, picking up children, taking them places, and running errands.  I did get to go see the baby, an she's a-dorable.  I really was hoping to get some sewing done.  I did make it to Fabric Mart yesterday and got the thread for my serger.  I got that threaded (on the second try!  I am awesome.  Or my serger is easy to thread.  I think it's a combo of both) and practiced on it a bit.  Now I just need to sketch some stuff out and dig through my fabric.  I think I might start with some bags for the girls to use for GS.  Then I'll move on to pj's and diapers.

Tomorrow is wicked busy.  Maddie has her GS cookie walk in the afternoon.  I have to go because Justin's balls are still sore.  They're not so bad he can't walk anymore, but still pretty sore if he walks too much.  I may sew on Sun.  Or Monday.  We'll see.

I'm hoping next week settles a bit.

Nov 28, 2010

More Giftmas...

Goldfish memory- engaged.  So you get another list.  Get used to it.

I think I've narrowed down what to make for the girls.  I hit the AWESOME flannel sale at JoAnn's on Black Friday and got enough to do diapers and make pj pants for me and the girls, plus a bunch for diapers (19yds for $40) .  Maddie's will be skulls and hearts and Em's will be monkeys.  Pillowcase dresses for each, but more fitted at the waist.  I may do a tie or elastic so they can use them for a while.  Tie straps, too.  I need to figure out the embroidery.  Both will get the cat mitts and headbands- black for Maddie and white for Em.  I have plenty of Peace Fleece in both colors, so I'll use that.  The pillowcases are already bought, too.  I just need to get the thread for the serger, elastic and ribbon.  Maybe some embroidery floss.  I need to look for a pj pants pattern for the girls.  I'm debating drafting my own from some Old Navy ones they have and like or just buying one.

I'll have plenty of sewing time this week, since Justin will be home M-W.  He's getting snipped tomorrow morning.  :D  So he'll be sitting on the couch playing video games and watching bad TV while I work on Giftmas stuff.

Nov 21, 2010

Giftmas lists....

Yeah, this is more for my own brain than for any of you.  I have the memory of a goldfish these days, so blogging it is!

We were talking about what to get the girls for Giftmas this year.  We've started a good tradition of a gift from each of us, one from their sister, and one (usually a big, joint gift) from Santa.  This year with all the diaper sewing and other stuff I'm making for Cheddar Jack, I want to make something special for each of the girls.

For Maddie I'm going to make a set of knitted amigurumi superheroes.  She'll also get a cat headband and matching mitts with paws embroidered on them.

Em wants a Pillow Pet.  We'll see.  They look way more complicated than I thought.  I may be able to come up with something, though.  If not, it'll be a house for Gus (her favorite bear).  She'll also get the cat headband and mitts, but in white since she love Hello Kitty.  Maybe I'll make hers monkey ears instead.

We're debating getting the girls an inexpensive laptop or a small flat screen from Santa this year.  They want both, but won't get both.  I know they'll use them, so it's not a frivolous purchase.

I know what I'm making Justin, but I'm not putting it here, because I'm not 100% sure he doesn't read this.  I won't forget that one, anyway.

And me?  I got a serger.  YAY!!!!!!

Nov 19, 2010

More could be Facebook statuses

Because it's been a while and I'm lazy, you get more Almost-Facebook statuses.  I'll put up a more coherent post..... sometime.  :p

Dr's appt yesterday.  It was super quick, in and out, even found parking easily!  Baby is good, weight is good, I'm good.  My hips are fucking killing me, but it's part of pregnancy.  24 weeks and counting....  I'm almost to end of the second trimester.  Eeeeek.

I've been printing off patterns and buying fabric for cloth diapers.  I even cut some out the other day.  Best of all?  JUSTIN BOUGHT ME A SERGER.  WOO HOO!  I'm wicked excited.  Can you tell?

Nothing new on the med board.  It's finally being submitted.  We'll know what the informal board says sometime in Feb.  Then we make the call to take it to the formal board in San Antonio or not.

There was thunder and lightning last night!  It was just a few times, and sad, but it was still there.  I loved it.  I miss good storms.

And that's all the goldfish brain will let me remember at the moment.  :p

Nov 8, 2010

Grrrr. Arrrrrgh.

I need to get the fuck out of my house for a little while.  Not for knit night or anything.  Just OUT.  Of the HOUSE.  By MYSELF.

Tomorrow I plan to go to the Airmen's Attic to pick up some t-shirts and flannel sheets and towels.  I'll be turning them into cloth diapers.  Then I have to pick up Justin for lunch and take him back, then pick up the kids from school at 2:15.  Not much time to get away, huh?  Blergh.

I have no idea why I'm so fucking cranky.  Well- I have a feeling it's pregnancy.  I'm not feeling the glow with this one I did with the last two.  I feel huge and fat and ugly.  I hit my trigger weight about two weeks ago, which I think is what did it.  You know that weight where you go OHMAHGAWDI'MAFUCKINGWHAAAAAAAALLLLLLLE!  Yeah, that one.  And then realizing I still have 17 weeks to go?  UGH.  Of course, it doesn't help that my friend's husband keeps pointing out how little weight she's gained to me.  You would think he would know NOT to say that to a pregnant woman, considering she's giving birth to his 4th kid.  But he's become a grade-A douche over the last 6 months, so I'm not surprised.

Then the drama.....  OMG, Maddie is crying over every little fucking thing today.  Dishes, trash I ask her to pick up, everything.  I want to smack her.  Hard.  Or just send her to bed.

Tomorrow will be better.  Tomorrow I will get stuff to make diapers and all will be good.

Oct 27, 2010


It seems readership has fallen.  I really am that boring.  Boo.  Hiss.

Oh well.  Onto the snore inducing stuff!

I'm test knitting a soaker pattern for a fellow Raveler.  This soaker is truly awesome.  It's well written and includes a section where you can customize the whole damn thing.  It's the first one I'm thinking about getting a cottage license for and selling on Etsy.

I kind of fucked the first one up.  But it was a test knit, so I expected it to be a little wonky.

See those skinny little chicken legs?  Yeah, no child of mine will have legs that small.  I make fat babies. I also screwed up the short rows and a few other things.  I'm doing a second in Peace Fleece, which is turning out to be a little wide, but seemingly bulletproof.  I like it.  

We've got the baby registry pretty much done.  It's on Target and Amazon, and if you know my real name, you can find me.  Not like it's hard to figure that out, right?  Now we're just waiting.  Jack is fattening up, and my ass is growing to counterbalance the belly.  Ugh.  

Oct 22, 2010

20w 1d

Here's the 20w belly. The baby has moved all up front. I don't look all that different from the back (except for my ass being bigger). It's kind of nice. With the girls I was HYOOOOOGE- I carried them all over. This guy is nice and compact. Weight gain is awesome- only 15 lbs, and has slowed considerably since the first few weeks (when I gained almost 10 lbs). It looks like I may end up around 25lbs gained this time. I'm not complaining.

He's been super active since yesterday. Justin can't feel him kick unless it's a good wallop, but he can feel it when Jack rolls. I don't feel the rolling as much, other than the Braxton-Hicks they cause. :) Another week or so and we'll probably start to get the Alien-type moves. Those are fun. And strange. Freaky, towards the end.

The girls are wicked excited. The first thing they asked yesterday when they got home was if the baby was a boy or a girl. Justin's plan to leave the baseball glove on the couch backfired- they just saw a glove. They both have one, so what was the big deal? Then they realized it's not pink, it's BOY colors. It was hilarious. I'm pretty happy we've raised them to see sports equipment as just that- equipment, with no gender attachment. :)

Oct 21, 2010



The ultrasound was OSSIM.  The regular tech had to go somewhere so we got an OB and an OB in training.  Apparently the boy was NOT shy.  The first thing the dr said was, "Congratulations, you are having a boy."  Justin got the biggest grin.  Then the kid got shy and he started hiding the goods.  :(  But the scan was really long so he eventually forgot to hide his bits.  

The ultrasound itself was pretty interesting.  Once we told the dr we both were interested in what all the parts were he was looking at and why, he talked to all of us, not just the med student.  Then he let the student practice for a bit while he got a tech who was better at ultrasounds.  She's the one who got the junk shot here.  She was laughing when I told her we have two girls and I needed less estrogen in my house.  The cat doesn't count- he's fixed.  :p

Justin had bet me lunch it was a boy, so after we got done and the obligatory text messages were sent, we went to McD's.  He was kind of in a haze.  It was adorable.  After that we went to the NEX and Target.  He wanted to get the boy a ball glove.  :p  We finally did our registry at Target, which was WAY too fun.  We fought over the gun.  There's probably some dumb shit on the registry, but whatever.  It's the first time in three kids we've been able to do it!  Watching Justin get into the baby stuff was awesome.  He kind of hung back with the girls because of the undiagnosed bipolar, but this time he's super involved.  I let him add whatever the hell he wanted.  There are a few things I know we don't need and likely won't get, but that's ok.  

And yes, we have a name picked out.  No we're not keeping it secret.  This boy will be named Jack Edward, after two pirates (Calico Jack and Blackbeard- Edward Teach), as well as Justin's great grandfather (Edward) and my great-grandmother's brother (Jack Edward).  We didn't find out about the connection in my family until well after we'd picked the name, but it makes me happy.  I wasn't able to name a girl after Grandma Dorothy, so her brother will have to do.  This Jack Edward will make it out of childhood.  :)

Oct 11, 2010

In which I organize

I organized my craft closet today.  I found some wire cubbies in the garage that used to be in the girls' room.  There's no space in there for them now (well, maybe in their closet, but they just pull them apart), so I commandeered them.  I thought they would work great for fabric and yarn storage.  The only question was, where?  I didn't want them out, because of cats and sunlight (cats will sleep in the yarn and fabric and the sunlight will fade them).  Ahhhhh- the closet!  I had everything in bins, and it was a big pain in the ass to pull every single bin out to get to the ONE I needed, then go through it to find what I want.  Now I can just look at my cubbies and pull a stack out to get what I need.  I even managed to cull some of the stash, both yarn and fabric.  I have a pile of fabric to send to my mom and some acrylic and novelty yarns for either the Airmen's Attic or any of the Aloha Knitters who might want it.  I even made a "To Frog" bag of projects that will never be finished.

The awesome thing was that the majority of it fit into the cubbies with room to spare.  I kept the fiber in bins, just to it'll all be in one place.

I still have the metric butt-ton of fiber from Ariana to go through.  I may offer it up to LSGers for the cost of postage.  I need to see what I want to keep.  I'm debating on the fleeces.  With the baby coming, I don't know that I'll have time to do all the work to spin it all up, much less pick it, wash it and comb/card it.

Oct 9, 2010

Knitting-0, Sewing-2

In the knitting mojo vs. sewing mojo contest, sewing seems to be winning.  I've been making all sorts of stuff recently.  I think it's a combination of pregnancy causing me to have the attention span of a goldfish and the need for instant gratification.

I have plans for more maternity wear over the next few weeks.  I started the Metallica shirt last night, but the elastic ruching looks like ass.  Not to mention there's math involved.  Math me no likey.  I'm going to go with my original plan to refashion it based on my favorite tank top.

Next up is a kilt, or kilt-type skirt, based on a Utilikilt.  Angela sent me the pattern she used for Socklicker's kilt a while back, and I'm thinking of modifying that to fit a growing belly.  I would be using all the same techniques (pleating, measuring, etc), but instead of a traditional apron that buckles or Velcros, I would replace that with a stretchy knit panel at the top, leaving the rest of the apron as a mock apron.  Someone asked me how it stays a kilt, but really, I don't think that modification changes too much.  I need something that won't be ZOMGSOHOOOOOTTTTTTTT here but still has pockets.  I love my jeans, but the baby has turned up my internal furnace.  They're just getting to warm.

My maternity wardrobe is getting to be pretty bad-ass.

Oct 6, 2010

Make your own maternity shirt!

Being somewhat poor (hey, military families only make so much!) and pregnant means finding maternity clothes cheap.  Unfortunately, most of those are downright UGLY, if not, dare I say it?  FUGLY.  What is it about designers that makes them think "Oh pregnant women LOVE ruffles!  They LOVE pastels!  Let's make REALLY BIG COLLARS so no one notices they're pregnant!  Let's put cute baby sayings on ALL THE THINGS!"


Women like me want to wear the same stuff we wore BEFORE we got pregnant.  In my case, that's jeans, tank tops and awesome t-shirts.  Now a few designers HAVE come up with some pretty bad ass maternity shirts.  Unfortunately, they also cost WAY more than I'm willing to spend on a shirt I'll wear for less than nine months.  What's a crafty girl to do?

Make her own, that's what.  For a while now I've been researching how to make a shirt using another as a template.  I've been practicing sewing on knits.  I even made a skirt that looks pretty good, if my ass wasn't lumpy with pregnancy fat (it's been retired for post-partum wear).  So when my husband and I were in Target on Sat, looking for a few things for him, I found a couple of awesome shirts that just cried out for a makeover.

This shirt:

Became this one:

Total cost?  $11 for the shirt.  You may spend a few dollars more if you need thread and ballpoint needles.

Want to know how to do it?  Well here you go.

Goonies Maternity Shirt

You’ll need:

A maternity t shirt that fits you well

A super awesome men’s XL or XXL t shirt, or one 2-3 sizes bigger than you normally wear- MAKE SURE IT’S BEEN WASHED AND DRIED. You may want to try it on to make sure it fits around your belly with some ease.

Paper to make pattern (I used freezer paper taped together, but brown craft paper or leftover wrapping paper would work fine)

Thread to match the finished shirt

Pins, lots of them

Ballpoint or jersey needles for your sewing machine (trust me here)


Chalk or a marking pencil

Scissors, both for fabric and paper

A sewing machine or serger (goes faster, but you can hand stitch if you have the patience)

And here's the pattern.....

Oct 5, 2010

A song for Justin

This song is totally us. :D

(Make sure you turn off the autoplay music on the blog)

Day Two

The Prisoner is progressing well.  Today she cleaned the bathrooms and finished the lawn.  She and her sister folded and put away the laundry they had dumped on their floor yesterday.  She'll do some laundry this afternoon, but since she put in an extra hour or so yesterday when Mark came over to help with the lawn, I'm letting her have an easy day.  Plus she went and did her work without being poked.  I can respect that, and will reward it.

We did have to have a small chat on why you don't leave the toilet brush on the dining room chair.  Ew.

Tomorrow she'll clean out the car, vacuum it and wash it.  We don't have a lot of trash with Justin being gone, so she can do the garbage can Thursday.

Speaking of Justin being gone, he may end up staying longer than we thought.  His dad is having an MRI today, and based on the results of that he'll have the surgery to repair the aneurism in his heart as well as place the pacemaker.  Justin will need/want to stay for that to make sure it all goes well, so if the surgery isn't scheduled till Thursday or Friday he'll need to push his return date back.  We'll know more later today.

I'm planning on finishing up my craft area.  I need to get my shelf put up and clear out some boxes.  I may put up some wire shelves and the memo board, too.  I am in desperate need of shirts that will cover my belly and since everyone has long sleeved stuff right now, I'll have to make them.  All the tanks I've found are either wicked expensive (since they're out of season), fugly or not in my size since they've been picked over.  I picked up a couple of awesome shirts in the men's section at Target on Sat- a Goonies one and a Metallica one.  I'll be taking those in to make them fit better.  I also have  shirt from Motherhood Maternity I want to recreate.  There aren't really any hems and I have some fabric that will work well, I think.  The awesome thing about making your own shirts, esp maternity ones, is that when I'm not pregnant anymore I can take them in to be regular shirts.  It's way easier to remove fabric than it is to add it.  So I'll have some awesome nursing tops, too.  I plan on doing it to all my maternity clothes.

I'm kicking the girls outside to play in an hour or so.  Maddie can do laundry tonight.  She needs to go play with her friends.

Oct 4, 2010

Day One

The prisoner has started her sentence.  Her first job was scrubbing out the cat box after I emptied it.  Not a bad job, but she managed to get herself all wet and had to change.

Next up were the floors.  I handed her a pair of gloves, a scrub brush and filled a bucket with warm water and Lysol.  Told her I wanted to be able to eat off the floors when she was done.  She tried to tell me she was done 5 min after she started.  Uh, no.  Floor being wet/=clean.  There was still stuff stuck to the floor and the baseboards had crap.  So she had to re-do it.  Then we moved on to the small tiled area by the door, and then the spot under the cat box.  Oh, the cat box....

The cat got angry his box wasn't in its customary spot and decided to pee on the floor.  That meant not just the area where the box goes, but the ENTIRE laundry room needed to be done.  Thanks, cat.  I love you.

Now she's working on the dining room, and following it up will be rinsing all the floors with clear water.  Then she can scrub the bathrooms.

Tomorrow is mowing the lawn.  BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Oct 3, 2010

Allll by myyyyyyysellllllffffff!

Because Justin is in Nashville this week.

His father had heart attack #7 on Friday night.  Luckily his friend was with him and was able to get him to the hospital.  They still had to shock him 7 times to get his heart rhythm back.  He was out of it and on a vent till this morning.  Justin headed out there on emergency leave yesterday, and got there this morning.  His dad was awake and talking, and is on less medication than he had been.  He'll likely have a pacemaker/defibrillator put in tomorrow or the next day and then it's just a matter of healing up.  We were horribly worried (obviously) that he wouldn't make it this time.  He's like a goddamn cat, with all those lives.

I seriously miss Justin.  Nights are the worst, since I never sleep well without him in the bed, even when he's just downstairs.  But I am kind of enjoying this time to myself.  I have some good plans for this week.  The girls are off school for fall break.  We'll be busy cleaning in the morning, since I'm playing warden to Maddie.  She lost a textbook and it's $46 to replace it.  So rather than her just handing over cash, she gets to every dirty, disgusting chore we have.  She'll be mowing the lawn with a mechanical lawn mower, raking and bagging the clippings, cleaning out the garbage cans (including the outside one), recycling bins and the courtyard off the kitchen, scrubbing floors and bathrooms and doing laundry.  We're such awful parents.  :p

The Blueberry is getting super active.  It squirms around all.the.time.  I'm 17 1/2 weeks- already!  Weight gain has been good- less than 15 lbs total so far, and I'm almost halfway through.  I seem to be gaining about 1/2 lb a week.  I'll be happy if this one ends with a decent weight gain.  The big ultrasound is in 2 1/2 weeks- Oct 21.  We are definitely finding out the flavor- we have shit to buy!

Sep 24, 2010

Wifely FAIL

As a 1930s wife, I am
Very Poor (Failure)

Disagree, since most of what I do is based on early 20th century housewifely duties.  I guess I just don't have those good old fashioned values.  *snicker*

Sep 11, 2010

Holy visitors, Batman!

Fuck people!  You must be all fired up about this Battleship thing.  :)  I've had around 100 visitors in the last two days, people searching me out, all sorts of shit after I posted Report From the Set!  I usually get 5-10 a day.  Maybe some of you will stick around?  I know this blog is WAY thrilling.

I assure you, today was not as exciting.  Neither was yesterday.  I'm not 100% I will have a day like that again, unless I work on Hawaii 5-0 (which I'm going to send in my paperwork for.  Daniel Dae Kim is awesome!).  One of the things I liked about working was getting to know everyone.  I made some good contacts for photo work, headshot stuff, obviously.  I met the guy who runs the Hawaii Actors Network (Teddy Wells, in case you're interested.  He also played Ivan on LOST.  Nice guy.) and his brother and we threw some ideas around for me doing a workshop or two with the HAN.  Too bad I'm leaving in the spring.  :(

I have to say, one of the best things about the last few days was seeing how a movie is filmed.  On Thursday I got to hang out and watch while they filmed the close-ups of the principals.  Since the deck os the Missouri is rather small, I got to watch the screens and the cranes and everything.  My little photography heart grew 100 sizes bigger that day.  ;)  If you didn't know, there are usually 3-5 cameras shooting a scene at any given time.  For us, there was one on a crane, sometimes a steady cam, and a few others getting different angles.  This movie will be done in 3D, so they had to have special cameras for that, too.  I had a great time watching the huge crane-like camera (I have no idea what it's called) do Liam Neeson's close-ups.  Moving those things around looks almost like an old-fashioned sub- there are a lot of dials and wheels that need to be turned, rails to be set and leveled, and it takes 4-5 people to operate them.  I got to watch the cinematographer, Tobias Schliessler, set up a bunch of shots.  He spent around a half an hour working on just one angle.  It was amazing.  Sadly, this will be one of the last movies shot on film.  Peter Berg prefers it, I guess (and so do I, given the choice), but he said the film movie is dying and HD digital is taking its place.  That makes me a sad panda.

What made me really sad is the amount of waste involved.  We went through Bob knows how many bottles of water, trash all over, and the money for people who really didn't do much.....  it makes me shake my head.  When I think of what that money could do, I want to shake people and scream.  It definitely made me rethink parts of my life and how and what I consume.  Weird that being in a movie would do that, huh?

Overall, though, it was pretty awesome experience.  Would I do it again?  Eh, probably.  I know what to ask about now, though, so I'm not standing in polyester all damn day.  :)  I never want to do that again.  I left the military for a reason!

Sep 10, 2010

Report from the set!

I did my two days on Battleship! It was really long and tiring. I worked W/Th, doing a ceremony on the USS Missouri. I was in Navy whites for both days and holy fuck- keeping those things clean is a nightmare. And they’re polyester, so they’re hot.  The good news is I WILL be in the movie. Yesterday we did a section of the ceremony where you’ll see the back of my head. It was one take, so I know I made it in. Look for a red lei. I’m two people before the black guy.

ANYWAY- you guys are probably wondering about the actors… particularly Alexander Skarsgard (True Blood dude) and Talyor Kitsch (Gambit!). Oh, and did you know Liam Neeson was also in it? Yeah, saw him in person too. :D

Alexander Skarsgard is an awful actor. Very good looking in person, and also very, very nice. Yesterday they did a raffle thing where the producer gave one of the extras $500 in cash. AS was standing right behind me. We were joking with him about being tall enough to see when the rest of us in the back had to jump up and down. The acting, though…. holy shit. His delivery was terrible. It may have been the lines, but he had no idea how to deliver them and make them sound good. And then he tried to salute. Ugh. I think he got some help because he got better, but we were all snickering at first (there were a lot of AD and former military in the extras). That salute would NEVER have been acceptable in the real military.

Liam Neeson is just as amazing in person as he is on screen. Better actually, because his voice is fucking. amazing. It’s a lot deeper than the mics pick up, and very resonant. He seems to be a very private person, but was very polite and kind to all the crew. Not a jackass at all.

Taylor Kitsch is cool. Shorter than you would expect. Seems nice enough, but I didn’t see much of him. Very aloof. Seems a bit caught up in the stardom.

Rihanna…. That girl is a BITCH. She spent the entire first day looking all sulky, hiding behind things. She didn’t talk to anyone. I thought maybe because it hot, but not so much… she did the same thing the second day. She hid whenever she could. We were actually told that taking pictures of her specifically was NOT. ALLOWED. Then I saw her giving an interview yesterday afternoon and she was all happy and OMGIMSOGRATEFULTOBEHERE!. It was all fake. Fakefakefakityfake.

Peter Berg= OSSIM. Very Nice man. He kept telling us that if we needed anything let him or any of the crew know and they’d help us out. He was positive about everything, and just a great guy to work for. If you ever have the chance to work on any film or show of his, do it.

That’s about it. The days were long, I was tired and I smelled. They wanted me to do more days, but the heat and sweat isn’t worth the pay. I know I’ll be in the film and that’s enough for me.

Sep 2, 2010

I make-a da tings

I made a skirt!

Right now I'm trying to decide if it makes me look horribly lumpy or not.  I think there are a few things going on....

1-  The fabric is kind of clingy.  The skirt I modeled this on was made from a cotton knit.  It was much heavier than this is.  This is a rayon blend.  It's wicked soft, sewed like a dream and is soooooo comfortable and stretchy.  I may just say fuck it and wear this with longer shirts, just for the stretch factor.  

2-  Inappropriate underpants.  The underpants I have on are a wee bit small.  They bunch a bit under my belly.  They leave lines and don't quite cover everything they should cover.  I'm thinking a thong or these  humungous red boy shorts I have might work better.  

3-  Bad lighting.  This was taken in my sewing room (!- I have a sewing room!) with really bad lighting on a webcam.  I'm going to see Angela tomorrow, so I think I'll ask her how this looks.  The LSG hoars already have seen the pics.  I'm sure once people in the real world wake up and check Rav I'll get more opinions.  So far we're mostly in favor with one or two agreeing slightly lumpy.  

I am loving sewing on knits.  It's not nearly as hard as I thought it would be.  You just need to pin the shit out of the cut edges.  My rotary cutter and mat have been awesome, too.  I don't need to move the fabric as much as with regular scissors, so my cut edges stay neater.  I will definitely be making more knit stuff.  

Aug 27, 2010

!2 weeks and counting....

Had my 12 wk appt yesterday. We got to see the Blueberry! The dr had some trouble finding the heartbeat witht he doppler, so I got a surprise! ultrasound. The kid was not happy. It’s measuring 12w 4d, which is big, but after 9ish weeks, the ultrasounds aren’t very accurate. Once we saw how it was laying, I’m not surprised she had trouble with the doppler. It immediately turned its back to us. I think it may have even flipped us off. Its arms are still very short, though, and the fingers are just out of the flipper stage, so I could be wrong. But there’s only one, and the one looks good. :D

I'm all set up with the midwives. Mrs Sur, the NP I saw was awesome about it.  Unlike a lot of drs, she had nothing to prove and was really positive about the midwife program.  She thought it was wonderful that I wanted to be seen through them.  Honestly, if she could do deliveries, and I had a guarantee of her doing my delivery, I would have stayed with her.  I loved her.  But the NPs only see patients to 36 weeks, then you go to the OBs.  Since I don't trust those OBs AT ALL, I'll stick with the midwives, thanks.  

Other than that, we're just waiting.  The med board package was submitted to the med group.  It should be at big AF in a week or two.  Then the waiting becomes months long.  BLEH.  But it gives us time to get the house pulled together, the garage cleaned out, and a bunch of other stuff done.  I'm ok with that.  

Aug 19, 2010

11 weeks

I was going to wait till next week, when I'm 12 wks, but my friend Kelly asked for a shot.  So here it is.  I feel huge, but apparently I'm not.  I've only put on 5 lbs so far.  I actually like this photo.  We'll see how I feel in a few months.....


Aug 10, 2010


I got the call for Battleship today!  I'm going to be filming for four days  The first two will be on the USS Missouri, and I'll be in Navy utilities.  :D  Not sure about the other two, but I'll likely be just a family member or something.  Costume fitting is next week.  I'm really hoping they're going to put me in the new Navy BDU's, not the old dungarees.  I'm not sure I can hide the bump in dungarees.  If it's BDU's, I can wear a belly band and have the blouse hide it.  The lady I talked to was funny- "I know you were in the Air Force, but do you mind wearing a Navy uniform?"  Nope, not at all.

I will try to take pictures.  I'm not sure what will be allowed, but I plan on having my phone with me, which has a decent camera.  If I run into Talyor Kitsch, I'll be excited.  He was Gambit in Wolverine.  Maddie would fucking freak.  I want to take as little as possible with me, since I don't know exactly where I'll be leaving my stuff.  Essentials- business cards, phone, ID and a sock to keep in my pocket.  Uh, yeah, I'll be knitting.  WTF else will I do between takes?  I'm really hoping it's BDU's.... they have the pocket to hide all that and some protein bars so I don't pass out.

But yay!  I'm going to be in a BAD sci-fi movie!

Aug 4, 2010

A milestone

I would just like to give myself a public pat on the back.

I have not gone to the Cuntwagon's blog, website, iTunes page or looked at anything about her since late March.

Not easy, especially in the beginning, but I've done it.  To be honest, I really don't give a crap about her sad little life.  I know she still visits here from time to time, and I'm pretty sure she follows me on Ravelry (I get some very strange disagrees.... usually it's when I mention the baby or Justin).

The only reason I'm even bringing it up now is because a friend got orders to the same base Cuntwagon is stationed at.  I cringed when she told me, then we started laughing and joking about my friend running her over (my friend is in a wheelchair).  :)  Not that she would....  well, unless she were provoked.  She's pretty feisty.

Anyway, it's somewhat of a big deal for me.  I'm actually able to let go of someone who made my and my family's life a living hell for a long time.  She can't touch us anymore, especially once we leave the service and move to Seattle.

Aug 3, 2010

Knitting mojo, gone

I am dissatisfied with all the things I am knitting right now.  I want to start something new, but I know I shouldn't.  Problem is, the two sweaters I'm working on won't fit me in a few months.  I have a couple cardigans, but they're OLLLLLLLLDDDD.  I found a great new pattern, but I need to look through the yarns I have to see what would possibly work.  Maybe the red Knitpicks.  

I should finish what's OTN already.  But my shawl has lost its interest for me.  The sock is a travel project.  And we talked about the sweaters.  BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!

Jul 31, 2010

First OB appt!

Today was the first OB appt.  Well, really just all the paperwork I need to do to start with the real appointments.  It took fucking forever.  When I got there it reminded me of the DMV.  Take a number have a seat, they call you to the counter.  Then you put some paperwork in a box and the nurse calls you back to take your vitals.  I was already worked up, so my blood pressure was high, but I have a touch of white-coat syndrome, plus I was ready to fight to see the midwives.  Weight was.... ok.  I was heavier on their scale than I am here, but I was also clothed and had eaten breakfast and had my morning caffeine.  So I really haven't gained too much yet.  Yay!

Then we went back and sat in the waiting room again.  And sat.  And sat.  And sat.  Finally I got called back over half an hour past my appointment time.  ARGH.  The paperwork was pretty easy.  The nurse was nice, and since this is my third kid, plus I'm working on that midwife certification, I know pretty much all of what they're talking about.  The thing that threw me was that they wanted me to go for a glucose test today.  All because Maddie was over 8lb 13 oz when she was born.  I've never had GD, and neither Justin nor I are small people.  Why would they expect small babies from me?

So after all was done in OB we went off to the lab where I drank the goo.  We wandered around the hospital for a while, stopped by the VA so I could pick up the paperwork to apply for disability, and then sat in the lab till they had to do my blood draw.  I was amazed at how awesome the tech was.  Usually blood draws really fucking hurt.  This tech was so good I didn't even feel it.  7 vials went by really quickly.  Then we had lunch and I came home and took a nap.

Tonight we went to Anna Miller's for dinner.  It's payday and I really didn't care to cook.  Then we picked up some stuff at the mall and I stopped to look at maternity clothes.  I can tell I'll be doing a LOT of sewing this time.  Most of the clothes are fugly.  No good t-shirts.  I'll likely have to design my own and get them through Zazzle or Cafe Press.  And I'll be making some pants and skirts, too.  I need to head to Goodwill to pick some up.  I just wish my mom would send me the elastic I asked her to get.

This weekend ties up the move.  The new house is awesome.  I have a fuck ton of unpacking to do, but I need to focus on getting the old house empty and clean first.  And the girls go back to school on Monday, so I'll have plenty of downtime to empty boxes, only to re-pack them for the move to Seattle.  Yay.

Jul 18, 2010

Should go to bed

But I can't.  Justin isn't home and I can't sleep without him.  Plus there's that whole first trimester OMGSOTIREDIWANTTODIE bit, but IJUSTCAN'TFUCKINGSLEEP.


On the plus side, I got to chat with an old friend for a few hours via Facebook.  I remnded him he took me to Sleepwalkers in high school.  He says he did no such thing as he'd never take anyone to such a bad movie.  I disagreed and since I have the better memory, I won.

In between I read Hyperbole and A Half.  It made me LAWL.  She's the only person ever allowed to use MS Paint ever again.

Now I'm listening to Stupid be unable to figure out where the hell she is.  I think she has a sock.  It's really pathetic.

Jul 15, 2010

Plans, they are a-changing

Yes, they are.  

I've alluded to this in past posts, but I didn't want to say anything till we had confirmation.  We'll be out of the military sometime next year.  Justin is getting med boarded again, and this time we and the drs agreed that asking for medical retirement is the best idea.  The bipolar disorder and PTSD are pinging off of each other too badly.  The drs are writing up the package, and it will go to the med group by the end of the month.  Then we have a looooooooong wait.  It's taking 6-8 months from the time it hits bif Air Force.  Then we get 90 days to out-process.  with any luck we'll make it to next July, Justin will get his next installment of his bonus and we'll be able to use it in our move.  

What move?  The one to Seattle!  We decided Seattle was the best place for us.  It's a big city, there are a lot fo opportunities for me as an artist, and Justin can go to UW for his psychology degree.  

I've also kind of changed my plans a bit.  I've been kicking the idea around of going back for a Masters, but I can't decide in what.  I love art history, but what the fuck am I going to do with it beside join all the other art historians at Starbucks?  I'e been looking at midwifery school for a while now.  I'm really passionate about the state of childbirth in our country (as in it SUCKS).  I was going to go to doula training, but hen I thought about it, I realized I should do the deliveries, too.  I was stuck, though, because I don't want to be a nurse, then go through midwife training.  Well, in another stroke of the Universe deciding my fate, I found out that Bastyr University combined with the Seattle Midwifery School to create the first MS in Midwifery in the US!  It's expensive, and I need to take some pre-reqs, but it's totally something I want to do.  I really believe in it.  And while I'll always be an artist, I can do a lot more good helping women give birth naturally and intervention free than I can ever do with my art.  

So that's where we are.  I'm pretty happy with the recent developments.  I'm finally starting to settle about the Ninja Pirate, too.  I think that's more because Justin is crazy supportive of all my choices with this one, and I know we're going to do just fine in Seattle.  Friends are coming out of the woodwork, inviting me to go all over as soon as we get there.  The Hive is amazing.  

Jul 10, 2010

Rocket ass!

I have been farting uncontrollably all night.  And not with confidence.  I actually sharted earlier.  That was wicked fun!

This stomach flu can go.  I'm trying to decide if it's the stomach flu or the Ninja Pirate causing the nausea.  He may also be causing the gas, but I have a feeling since it is sometimes accompanied by other things, the gas is the stomach flu ending.  At least the farts are satisfying now.  Before, not so much.

I am easily entertained.

The Ninja Pirate seems to have stolen all my knitting mojo.  I can't do the shawl I want because I'm having trouble counting past 5.  This is normally not a problem.  I can generally have a chart memorized within one repeat.  Of course this one has the devil's nipples, aka nupps, which seem to throw me completely off.  I have to do them every 16 row, so I'm failing to see why I have a problem.  Maybe I'll go knit some soothing stockinette.

Not much knitting for a while.  We finish the paperwork for the new house this week and do the final walkthrough and get the keys on Thursday.  YAY!  We can start moving right away.  It looks like this weekend I'll be getting some stuff packed and buying some 20 gallon Rubbermaid bins.

I'm also considering going to the casting call for Battleship.  They're filming here in Sept/Oct and need 3,500 extras.  It's looking to be an absolutely awful sci-fi flick based on the board game of the same name, so why not?  The first calls are for military family members, which is me!  And I'll be here in Sep/Oct!  It starts at 10 tomorrow and again at noon on Sun.  Haven't decided which I want to go to yet.

Jul 9, 2010

Dear pirate,

Please to stop with giving me the nausea and the gas.  You are merely a millimeter long.  That is MUCH too tiny to cause these problems.  Your two older sisters give me enough headaches.  Make this last pregnancy easy on me, please.  I promise when you make landfall I will give you boobs and warm blankets made of lovely cuddly yarns.  You will like them, I swear.  Just stop with the problems.

your ma

Jul 8, 2010

Dear Pants-shrinking Gnomes,

STOP SHRINKING MY GODDAMN PANTS. I don’t want to be wearing maternity pants when I’m not even 2 months along. For reals. I know this is Sprog #3, and my abs aren’t what they used to be, but for the love of God, I want to be able to wear real pants for a while longer. Stop coming to my house, stealing my jeans and taking them in at night. Stop using my dryer. How the hell are you tall enough to reach the dials anyway?
Give me my real pants back and I won’t be forced to sic the cat on you.
Who am I kidding, the cat won’t do shit. Just stop with the shrinking already.
No love, 

It's official!

I went in for my blood test today and it's official- I am indeed knocked up.

The nurse was kind of a bitch when I talked to her on the phone, but when I met her she wasn't so bad.  I'm already getting the scare tactics, this first one being that I can't see a dr off base without moving down to Tricare Standard.  That means co-pays I'm not sure we can afford.  I found out Tripler has a midwife program, which is a good thing.  I DO NOT want to be seen by the OB's there.  The midwife program bypasses them and is still covered by Tricare Prime.  You have to meet certain requirements, the main one being "having a low risk of needing intervention during birth".  I meet that requirement!  Not only do I not need interventions during birth, I don't WANT any interventions.  No forceps, no drugs, no IV, not a goddamn thing.  I plan to fight to get there if I have to.  It helps that my babies basically just fall out anyway.

I'm still having misgivings about this kid....  I'm happy, don't get me wrong.  But this some of the crappiest timing I've ever seen.  We're getting out of the military beginning of 2011 and we're not sure if it'll be a medical retirement or not.  No idea if I'll be giving birth here or in Seattle.  It's all so up in the air it's making me crazy.

Plus the cravings have started.  Certain things just sound good.  Tonight it was a roast beef sandwich.  I'm really glad we had some in the house.  Yesterday I was vomiting from the stomach flu, but before that it was pineapple and guacamole.  I'm hoping this isn't setting me up for the rest of the pregnancy.....  :p

Jul 5, 2010

Jesse got married!

Gina Jesse preview
Originally uploaded by durabledora
Here's one of my favorite photos from the wedding. I have about 600 to go through, so the pic spam will have to wait. :)

Jul 3, 2010

Pirate, ahoy!

We have a new pirate joining the crew.  Landfall is expected March 10, 2011.

Jun 26, 2010


We got to see the new house today!!!  Like, the actual one we're moving into.  :D    Justin needs to go Monday morning to fill out paperwork and get the DITY move approved and then hopefully July 19th we get the keys and can start moving!

It's not the house we were told to expect. Seems they're giving us SRNCO housing instead of the JRNCO stuff.It's a completely different floor plan.  I kind of like this one better.  It has a better kitchen and a more open floor plan.  The bedrooms are smaller than the other one, but bigger than here.  We actually have a garage and storage, too.  :D  We're on the back fence, so no behind neighbors.  We'll still be near Mark and Amber.  They're two doors down.

Jun 21, 2010


I promised a pic when it was all done up.  This is with a little bit of Bedhead's Curls Rock in it and about 5 min with the blow dryer.  No perm, no curling iron, nothing else.  These curls are all natural, bitchez.

The sock is out!!

Well, tomorrow, but The Sanguine Gryphon put up a blog post, so I can announce it.

This is my sock! (This is the sample in Sundara Sock.  The one from SG is in Eidos and is PURPLE.)

I'll post with the Ravelry link and the SG link so you all can buy it.  Because I know you want to.  :DDD

Jun 15, 2010


Got my hairs cut.  It was getting out of control.  My hair was almost down to my waist.  All I was doing was pulling back in a ponytail.  It was a crime, really, because no matter what other physical shortcomings I have, my hair is fucking fabulous.  So I cut it.  Short.  Not boy short like it used to be, but about chin length.  I donated two rather impressive tails to Locks of Love.  Now it's curly and layered and made of awesome.   I had forgotten how wavy my hair was.

Crappy webcam picture:

Been packing up the house.  I have way too much crap.  I took out a lawn bag and two regular trash bags today.  Why do we keep every goddamn piece of mail we get?  I have no idea.

Been buying sewing books like they're going out of print.  But I really want to start making more of my own clothes.  I got a couple books on general sewing, and some specific ones on different pattern type stuff.  Sublime, Stitching, too, because I want to start some embroidery.  I've finally decided that the front room in the new house will be my sewing room.  I get to keep the purple couch till we move from the island.  It's a good compromise.

Speaking of moving from Hawaii, it's looking more like that's going to happen sooner rather than later.  I don't want to go too into it right now.  Suffice it to say, the last couple weeks have been hard.  But we're making it through.  The good news is we'll be packed up, more or less.  :)

Wedding is in two weeks.  Argh.  I need to have the house presentable.  I'm really hoping that happens.  They know about the boxes and general dishevelment that will happen, but I need to scrub the bathrooms and kitchen to an inch of their life.  At least the cleaning for the move will be easier.

Jun 12, 2010

I spent tonight making the Peachy Beachy Cover Up from It got a little hairy at times, esp when I had to resew the facing three times. It turned out rather nicely, though. Then I realized I had no ribbon for the tie. So I made one. Nor did I have a safety pin to thread it through. Enter a locking stitch marker. The fucker took me 4 hours. The pattern claimed to take two. Whatever.
Things I learned:
Have ribbon handy 
Ditto with safety pins 
Don’t let the cat walk on your pattern after it’s taped together 
Don’t try to learn to use a narrow hem foot at 11pm on bubble gauze 
Ditto on trying to figure it out on a dress hem (no beginning or ending!) 
Measure where your ties go.
Seriously people, you’d think I know this shit. I’m a fucking sewing teacher.
Pics tomorrow.  I'm wearing it to the beach.  Long ass waist tie and all.  I'll clip the threads, though.  I don't want seagulls pulling at me. 

Jun 3, 2010

The Pound Cake

I take no credit for coming up with the original recipe for this.  It was born out of a night where I was too tired to stay up while the breadmaker made cinnamon roll dough.  I had three eggs, a block of cream cheese and other baking supplies.  That meant pound cake.  It took me a while to find a recipe that didn't call for 6 eggs.  And I didn't have blueberries.  Or yogurt.  Or orange juice.  So I made some substitutions.  It turned out they were good ones and the cake is YUM.

Lemon Cream Cheese Pound Cake

1 cup softened butter
1 1/3 cups granulated sugar
3 eggs
3 cups all purpose flour
1 1/2 tsp baking soda
1/2 tsp salt
8 oz cream cheese, softened
1/3 cup lemon juice + water to make 3/4 cup of liquid (you can play with the proportions to make it more or less lemony)
1 tbsp orange rind

Heat oven to 350.

In a large bowl, cream the butter and sugar.  Add eggs one at a time.  In a separate bowl, mix together cream cheese and lemon juice/water mixture.  Add flour and cream cheese mixture to butter in the following order: 1 c flour (plus salt and baking soda), 1/2 cream cheese mixture, 1 c flour, other half of cream cheese, rest of the flour.  Batter will be fluffy because of the reaction of the baking soda and lemon juice (science, FTMFW!).  Pour into a well greased and floured loaf or bundt (booont?) pan.  Bake for about an hour, till toothpick inserted near edge comes out clean (middle will still be a little jiggly if it's in a loaf pan).  Let cool.  Or just devour.

This would probably be really good with a cream cheese frosting, or just a lemon glaze.  There are a million recipes for that on Google.  Or with strawberries.  I want to do a lime tequila one.  I'm betting as long as the liquid is 3/4 cup, anything goes.

Look at me, I'm Donna Fucking Reed!

My sewing machine is fixed!  Yay!!  I get to pick it up tomorrow.  I'd have gone today, but it's downtown, and since I didn't find out till an hour before I had to leave for an appointment downtown, I couldn't go get it.  I wouldn't have made it to the place before they closed.  :(  But it's fixed, and I have three sewing books on the way!!  YAY!!

Now the question is- what do I break it in on?  I have a pile of fabric, a ton of ideas and just got a new sewing magazine.  Maybe I'll make some of the little zipper bags in there.  Ot the adorable elephant.  Or an octopus.  Or something!  Anything!

I'm starting to get knitting ADD again.  I finally finished and shipped the sweater for my friend.  Blargh.  It was beautiful, but it was hard staying monogamous.  I seem to have no problem with it in my marriage (good thing!), but project monogamy just doesn't happen.  I wound the yarn for a test knit of Kristen Rengren's Miss January today.  I'm still debating on the color scheme- gray body with green ribbing/yoke or green body with gray ribbing/yoke?  I have an army green sweater in the works (Picadilly), so maybe gray body.  But that's so..... gray.  I don't know.  I do know I can't start it until this weekend, since I ordered the wrong size needles.  I needed 2 1/2, not 2.  I'm going to the yarn store this weekend with some friends, so I'll get the right ones there.  That will also give me time to decide on the color combo.

I'm baking again.  I've been making cinnamon rolls like a mad woman.  I use my breadmaker to do the dough, then do the rest by hand.  They are YUMMY.  I was supposed to make them again this morning, but that didn't happen.  Yesterday was a pretty shit-tastic day, so when I finally got home (after 8pm), I was too beat to make them.  Instead I used my Google-fu to find a pound cake recipe that only needed 3 eggs, since that's all I had.  I found one that needed yogurt, which I didn't have.  I did have cream cheese.  No orange juice, but lemon.  No blueberries either (not essential).  So instead of a blueberry yogurt pound cake, it became a lemon cream cheese one.  And it was out-fucking-standing.  A little mealy, but I think that was the bread flour I used.  I ran out of all-purpose.  Seeing a trend here?  Yeah- I desperately need to go grocery shopping.

I'm becoming absolutely content with my life.  I'm making plans for the new house and trying to clear out this one.  We've decided that my craft room will be downstairs in the new place instead of in one of the bedrooms.  I work downstairs a lot, and since the new place has a "formal" living room we won't really use, it's going to be my craft room.  I hate being isolated from everyone, and if the girls are home, don't really feel right being upstairs all day.  If I have my sewing machine, spinning wheel and everything downstairs, I can work and they can do their thing and I'll know if they set something on fire. The spare bedroom will house the cross trainer, the purple couch (Justin thinks we're getting rid of it- ummmm, no) and the bookshelves.  It's just a switch of rooms, and a much more functional one.

Random thought to leave you with- my cat is making squeaky noises as he snores.  It's hilarious.

May 30, 2010

My husband spoils me

We went to the sale at the outlet mall today.  Tommy Bahama had everything in the store 50% off, and I wanted to see if they had anything for Justin for the wedding.  He's flat refusing to wear a suit, and I can't say as I blame him.  It's July 2, outside, in Hawaii.  That means HOT.  The wedding party is going to melt. He decided he wanted a formal aloha shirt and nice pants, since I said no kilt.  Hawaiian sarong?  Ok.  He wouldn't go for it.  I figured TB or Tori Richard was the place to go.  Kay told me she cleaned up at TB yesterday, so off we went.

He found a gorgeous blue formal shirt.  With ivory pants.  Yes, folks, I let my husband buy ivory pants.  He looks really fucking good in them, like someone out of a Hemingway novel (and you all know how much I dislike Hemingway).  I found a ton of adorable dresses, but only one was good for the wedding.  It's a black sheath with ivory embroidery down the front.  It's a little big in the waist and hips, but the bust fits really well.  Plus I can wear a regular bra and NO SQUASHER under it.  That's the best part, since I'll be shooting the wedding and will need to move around easily.  I found a sundress, too, at 70% off.  It's supposed to be a swimsuit coverup, I think, because it's kind of thin (which means regular slip).  Why someone would pay full retail ($118- WTF????) for it is beyond me.  But 70% off is ok.  It fits me perfectly.

Then we went over to the Coach outlet, where they were having a huge sale.  All the clearance was an extra 50% off.  I picked up a new teal bag- regularly $448, marked down to $115.  Justin also suggested I get a clutch for the wedding.  I found a great butter yellow one- regularly $199, marked down to $50.  Then they had an extra 20% off at the register.  So two Coach bags were only $132 after tax.  DAY-UM.

Last was Banana Republic where I didn't see much.  The sale wasn't fantastic.  It was 40% off everything in the store, but I wasn't feeling most of it.  I did find an adorable pink embroidered peasant blouse, so I got that.  It's part of my evil plan to learn how to make patterns from existing clothes.  I'm also planning on re-learning embroidery.  Once my machine is back, I'm all over that.  I have a few pieces I want to reproduce, both of mine and the girls'.  I have a whole bunch of books on my Amazon wishlist to help me, and I plan on ordering a few come Tuesday.  :)

Anyway, when I added up what we got, we walked out of there with about $1K of clothes/accessories for around $300.  I hate Kay a little bit right now, but in the best way.  :)

Bunny Butt Apothecary

So last week I finally got sick of commercial deodorant.  It makes me itch, smells funky after a while and worst of all, I still fucking sweat.  Not to mention I hate getting that crap out of my shirt pits.  I decided to go antiperspirant free for a while and see how it goes.  I do need something to counteract the BO smell, however.  Enter an Etsy search.

There are a metric fuckton of people who make deodorant on there.  I had no idea how to choose.  So I went with the one that appealed to me most, and was in the first few pages of the search, Bunny Butt Apothecary.  Theirs was a little pricier, but the scents sounded really good!  It was really hard choosing which one I wanted in my pits.  I went with Cucumber Tea, thinking it would be a nice light scent.  It is, but a little sharp....  we'll see how it wears.  They also had a set called Tri Me Bun- three of their whipped creams in 2oz sizes.  Lotion, you say?  Throw it in the cart!  I got Pirate Booty, East of Eden and Ye Olde Jasmine.

I got my order yesterday, only a couple days after ordering.  It was awesome.  The lotions came in a cute little muslin bag with a bunny on it.  And the smells.... OMG, they smell amazing!  I ended up picking the more masculine scents, because I have plenty of berry and girly ones already.   But they are awesome!  Pirate Booty smells like rum, coffee and chocolate, with a little whiff of the sea.  East of Eden smells just like the woods in summer.  The Jasmine is the best jasmine I've ever smelled.  And the lotion base is wonderful.  It's light, not greasy and soaks in almost right away.  It's the perfect amount of moisture for the islands.  The DO is nice, too.  It goes on smoothly, and doesn't feel like I'm caking crap in my pits.  I never realized it felt that way till I put this on.  We'll see how it does with the BO, since I'll be a sweaty hoar.  I may double up with a crystal stick if this doesn't do it on its own.  Either way, I'll definitely be ordering more from Bunny Butt.

Well, I gave it a run today. There was a sale up at the outlet mall, so we hit that. I was a little whiffy by the end of the day, so I may need to use a crystal stick then the good smelling stuff. I do really like not having the awful smell commercial stuff leaves, or he weird little pills from the supposedly invisible DO. And the BO wasn’t nearly as bad as it would have been without anything.

May 28, 2010

Things that could be Facebook statuses but aren't

I am madly trying to finish the sample knit for a friend.  I'm a few days behind.  Today is knit knit knit eat knit knit eat again knit knit weave in ends steam block seam wash block.  And Justin will play Mass Effect 2 to keep me occupied.

It's another cloudy day here.  I love cloudy days.  I hope it rains again.

Tomorrow Justin goes to fix the brakes on the truck.  What Firestone wanted over $800 Our friend Dave  can do for about $100 in parts + a chocolate cake.  Firestone is stupid.

Second day of summer vacation.  The gin is running low.  Send more, stat.

No word on the new house yet.  Looks like we won't be moving this month.  I am both happy and sad.  I haven't packed yet, but I'm fucking sick of this house and things breaking.

Justin made the offer to let me have what's supposed to be the formal living room in the new house as my craft room.  I think I may take it.  I do most of my work downstairs, and we can turn the third bedroom into the exercise room/man cave.  The catch?  I have to get rid of my beloved purple sectional.  Ouch.

Justin is staying in the AF, at least for now.  Work is being done to move him to a new squadron, thanks to his doctor.  We're trying to find degree programs where he can finish his degree in 2 years so he can apply to the FBI as a special agent when this enlistment is up.

Still need to work up the fall's class schedule.  Whoops.

May 10, 2010

New queue

Ok, so my knitting queue seems to have switched up a bit.  Here's the new list, in order of needing to be finished:

  • Helena, for the Luciano's baby shower on May 16.  On the 3rd lace repeat, and I'm doing short sleeves instead of long, so that should be done in no time.  
  • The sooper seekrit project for a designer friend- needs to be done by June 1st.  I'll be knitting my damn fingers off for a week or so.  Yarn should be here any day now. 
  • Lancia's sweater.  One more sleeve and the yoke.  If I can sit my ass down to do it, it'll be done rather quickly.  
  • Picadilly.  Almost through the body.  
  • Test knit of Miss January for above designer friend.  Got my 24" Hiya Hiyas today.  Just need to wind the yarn and finish the stuff up above.  
  • Kaleidoscope.  Although it may be frogged.  I'm not sure I like the gauge.  Love the yarn, but I'm iffy on the sweater itself.  I think it needs a slightly heavier yarn.  
  • Finish spinning the damn alpaca for a shawl.  Then knit said shawl if I have enough yardage.  
I really would like to have Picadilly and Miss January done by October.  I'm going to Rhinebeck again, and would love to have a handknit sweater for both days.  Esp since I'll see Designer Friend, and it would be awesome for her to see her sweater on a person in person.  :D  

What else?  Justin and I are doing really, really well.  I'm almost a little scared about how well we're doing.  I feel like we may sabotage it and everything will go to shit again.  I'm working really hard, and so is he, but the fear is still there.  I'm happier than I have been in years, though, so I'm enjoying it.  

The bronchitis is almost gone.  I still have a hell of a cough, but I can take a deep breath without hacking up a lung.  I think it'll get better as the week goes on, so I'm going to wait till Thursday or Friday to go back to the dr.  

I'm getting weird hits on here again.  I have a feeling the stupid whore is back to her old tricks.  I noticed someone emailed the entry about her emails from Feb to someone in NC.  I know a few people in NC, but not where it was emailed to.  I'm just shaking my head.  She's a pathetic, sad little person.  I went ahead and blocked her on FB, and if I knew her IP address, I'd block her here, too.  I'm done with her stupid little games.  

May 5, 2010

I is sick

I have bronchitis.  Motherfucking bronchitis.  And it's lovely, let me tell you.  Chest hurts, coughing, inability to breathe.  Fabulous.

On the plus side, I've gotten pretty far on Picadilly.  I've been working on it for a couple weeks now, and I'm almost through the body.  I should be able to finish the increases in the next few days.  Then it'll likely have to go on hold, as I'm doing a sooper-seekrit sample knit for a friend.  She needs it by June 1st.  Luckily it's sleeveless, so I should be able to get it done fairly quickly.  I'm just hoping she has it on larger needles.  It's in an alpaca/silk blend that is absolutely wonderful to work with.  After that is finishing the sweater of doom, a test knit for the same friend (I get to keep this one!), and then Tempest.  This seems to be the year of the sweater.

What else?  Not much.  Classes are doing really well.  They generally have more than the minimum.  I've added two new ones in July- a Photoshop class and a uniform class (putting on name tapes and rank).  I'll add quilting in October.  I really like teaching.

I've also been throwing around the idea of going through doula training.  We'll see.  I ordered a couple books that are required reading for the certification programs, just to see if it's something I really want to do.  It would mesh well with my artwork and teaching.  I'm also going to see if Darcee will let me go to her birth in Dec.  I need to go to one other than my own two, to see what it's like on the other side.  :)

May 1, 2010


In contrast to the last post, things are going rather well here at the Casa del Dean.  I'm finally getting a handle on this depression thing, marriage counseling is going well, and I'm madly in love with my husband.  He also happens to be madly in love with me.  :)  He left me the sweetest note this morning after he got called in to work.  I have absolutely no doubts we're doing a lot better than we were a month ago.

I know I'm happier.  I'm working really hard to stay that way.  I'm happy with my life, my choices and my future plans.  I'm looking at some new career options, too.  I'm not giving up art- never will- but I have other interests that I want to pursue.  They mesh well with my artworks, so I'm going to take a look at them.  I'll post a little more on that later as I figure some stuff out.

I want to give a shout out to my new visitors....  It seems my blog has become rather popular of late.  People are searching it out and even emailing it around!  Weirrrrrrd.  :p  So if you're new, leave a comment to say hello and tell me who you are!  I'd love to make some new friends.

Apr 22, 2010


I would like to go poke someone or something with a stick tonight.  I'm generally sad and my heart hurts.  Can't tell you why, just does.  (And really- there's no specific reason.)  I think it hurts more than usual because I remember that this is what I felt all.the.time. just a few weeks ago.  Damn.  I was fucked up.  Way more than I thought.  I wish it would go away.

Apr 11, 2010

Highland Games

Justin was in the Hawaii Highland Games yesterday.  He did pretty well for his first time out.  He's got our friends Mark and Doug convinced to train for next year's games.  :D

Mar 29, 2010

On hiatus

I'll be taking a hiatus from this blog....  there's a lot of shit going on at the Dean household at the moment.  I've got to focus on that.  I may post a song or not, or a picture, but don't expect anything coherent for a while.

Today's mood....

Not much better, but there's hope.

Mar 25, 2010

Ooooooh, I was born a ramblin' man!

Yet another late night blog post.  And another that rambles, because I'm not tired, but need to get to bed.

Today was a good day.  Well, it didn't start out that way, but it ended up there.  Justin got a call at 1:30am that one of his guys was puking, so he had to go in and cover the rest of his shift.  He got home a little after 6am.  :(  The nice part was that after the girls went to school, I went back upstairs and crawled back into bed with him.  I slept until 11am.  I can't remember the last time I got to sleep in that late, and with Justin in the bed.  It was wonderful, crazy dreams and all.

I have the sock pattern written up.  My friends JoAnna and Mary are testing it.  Mary caught a couple mistakes, which were easily remedied.  :)  She loves the sock, which gives me a warm fuzzy.  I like it, too.

Classes are going better than I thought they would.  I'm getting tons of people in my photo classes.  This session I have 5 people in my darkroom class, and three in digital.  People are being waitlisted for some of my classes.  I'm making more money doing this than I was when I was still a regular employee.  I'm enjoying it a hell of a lot more, too.  I'm working on a Photoshop class for the late summer and possibly an alt process class.

I'm still debating grad school.  I have money from the Post-9/11 GI Bill, which was a complete surprise.  It'll pay for a good part of my tuition if I can get to school while Justin is still AD.  I can use the BAH I'll get to pay whatever tuition isn't covered.  I'm aiming for UW-Seattle.  They have fibers as an undergrad program and a photography MFA, so the work I've been planning to do will fit nicely.  I just need to figure out the time to do it.

Wedding photography seems to be what I'm meant to do, at least for the time being.  I had another wedding fall into my lap over the weekend.  I shot it yesterday.  My friend Amy's vow renewal is this weekend.  I'm waiting to hear back on one for April, and then there are a few for June/July.  I need to get my website polished and put an ad on Craigslist.  I'll probably get more than I can handle!

I'm working on another pattern.  This one is a sweater based on one Angela's friend wore to her bachelorette party.  It's super cute, with a wide neck that can e worn a lot of different ways, set in sleeves, and a really simple stitch.  I think I may do it in laceweight on large needles.  That seems to work well here.

I think that's all I've got for right now.  Oh, the rambling....

Mar 21, 2010

Wedding pic spam!!!

My good friends Angela and Doug got married yesterday!  They asked me to shoot their wedding, which I was thrilled to do.  The wedding was perfect.  Simple, beautiful, and so full of love it was amazing.  I wasn't the only friend who offered up talent for the wedding- they had another friend do the cake, a second do the food (YUM) and a friend who is a hula kumu in a halau come with some of the dancers.  I'll make a longer post later, but for now here are a few I edited so they could send them out to those who couldn't make it.